Pastors, Ministers, Councilors, Worship Leaders, Ushers, Elders, Etc... I'm sure I'm missing a couple, but whats the main reason behind it all?? I mean, we go to school for a degree, in Ministry, Worship, Pastoring, and all that awsome stuff... but is that somethinng that you truly need schooing for? I don't mean to open up a can of worms, but if you don't truly have the heart for any of these, why even bother schooling? What are you really going to accomplish?? If you don't have a heart for the lost, the ones that are really needing the love, and compassion, comfort and hope... Why?? You may have the right words, awsome voice, the best strategy or "game plan" but all of that is nothing without Passion, Love, and Hope. Many pastors want their church to grow big and strong, many worship leaders have the dream of one day traveling and singing to many nations and be known for their style and their voice. Lets be real!! I admit to having thought like that for some time. Actually, if I can be very honest with you all, I was holding on to this one ministry for all the wrong reasons. and here goes my true reasons for having to let it go. As much as I love it, I had to let it go. When I was younger I never really thought I would ever be anything in the church. as far as a minister or pastor or any of these fancy titles. as I grew older I began to sing in the worship band along with my sister Daisy Garcia. Honestly, thanx to her I was able to develop my talent. So everything was fine and dandy, Until I led for the 1st time... can I say...scary!!! That's another story in itself, but my point is that I began to cling to certain people, believing that they were the ones that would take me where I needed to be. or push me to the "top" so to speak. It's not a horrible thing, however I began to totally depend on them, and where they would take me. Almost like a security blanket. Now thats bad. How horrible is it to forget about the the one that initially gave you the talent and wrote out your whole life story... the one that has created you with purpose.. so here I am depending on people to make me and get me where i want to be, rather than God himself?? No way! for my own sake I needed to just be on my own for a min. just to know where is it that He truly wants me to stand. What really is his purpose in my life? be within 4 walls and lead worship to the people that decide to stay within those 4 walls? Or can it be to truly take it to the streets? see, i've come to the conclusion that you don't need to be involved in ministry to do ministry. God is the one that uses us and takes us to the place he wants us to be when we are READY. I'm still in training for what my mission will be. and i'm ready for the breaking and molding more than ever. When I head to ministry I want my heart to be ready for it all. the good, the bad, and the ugly. I want to be compassionate. I want to give real hope. want to give UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Just as God gave the people, the lost, the dirty, the unwanted, the disowned, the unloved, the hated, the broken...
This is my reason.
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ive written my comment over about 3 times! i dont know exactly what to say but that i am taken by surprise. leadership is not easy. many are called but few are chosen. we all know these things. ive had my struggles. but i hope that there is no wall between rubin and diana, between freedom culture and diana. if there is something wrong i have done or our leadership has done i would like to know. i know that we all are trying our best to be like christ and we all are accountable to each other. one ive seen so many times that continues to break my heart is relationships that are torn between christ followers. love God, love people. God bless.
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