Food for today

So... you're most likely wondering what the heck I'm going to talk about as you read the title. Lol

It's funny how we can go throughout our days and not really pay attention to what we eat. most of you might not know, but all my life I've maintained my average weight (180 Lbs) until I hit 17-18 and that's when I was told that I had Hypothyroidism. A condition in which the thyroid gland produces an insufficient amount of thyroid hormone. So I went up in weight (235 Lbs.)Basically it lowers my metabolism, hence making it harder for me to loose weight. but I have declared myself healed, and decided to eat healthy and keep myself active. In doing so I have lost exactly 40 Lbs bringing me to 195 Lbs. This alone is a major accomplishment, however these past 3 days have been really bad. Why?? I'll tell you why... @ work we are having a secret Santa exchange or as Sharon would say, Secret baby Jesus... Lol so I thought well, since I can't give everyone a gift because I'm not RICH YET... I'll make little Christmas candy bags for them. ***BAD IDEA!!!*** I went to the store to buy all the candy and then one little bag caught my eye. It was my favorite chocolates from my childhood times. Creme Drops. I can honestly tell you I ate 2 bags of those things. Yes!! All by myself!! and now, I feel horrible!!!!!! all I'm thinking about is how much I weight!!! Lol besides that though, I'm having this down-time from all the sugar. And I don't feel good @ all. The most successfull thing I've done @ work all day is writing this blog... and Michele (Co-worker) is my witness. I have felt so horrible to the point of almost knocking out on my desk, tripping over nothing while waking, and holding on to everything I see just to make it to my chair and sit down. you may laugh but I'm so serious.. I began to think about the situations, and thought to myself... how many things am I feeding my spirit that might just not be as edifying as it looks? cuz let me tell you those Creme Drops looked really good, but at the end of the day the more I ate them the more I wanted them. The funniest yet realistic part was that I kept offering some to Michele and she took one but never ate it. Reason being??... She stated that I looked like I was addicted to those Creme Drops, and she didn't want to get to that point. All I know is that although this might be a funny situation, it really made me think about what I was feeding my Spirit and mind. Sometimes we might feel Down and out. Maybe on the... "I want to give up type of outlook on life.." that's when it hits us. I don't ever want to feel spiritually the way I did today on the physical side. Hopefully this helps you out...

I know it helped me. trust me, I'm never eating a bag of Creme Drops on my own again!!

Much love,

-Diana

Bowling

On Sunday a Group of us from freedom Culture went bowling, and I hadn't had that much fun in a while. It was awesome!! Pastor B, Sadrina, Roobz, and I were in one team, and Ramiro, Angelo, Ernesto, and Marcos were in the other. The funniest part was that we were trying so hard, and then, after a while we finally realized that there was this major league next to us. I mean right when we thought that we were kickin butt, we all felt... horrible. I mean there was this one kid and I mean KID, he was killing me. He hit every single one like right on the dot. I was so impressed. It literally made me want to go bowling every weekend just so I can get that good!
Pastor B was too funny as usual. Ernesto was just trying to break the record for his own speed. with was 20 whatever that means... lol and the rest of us were just trying to make ONE strike. lol As far as my bowling, for some reason every time (and I mean EVERY TIME) I was up to bowl I would drop all of them except that one. it was so frustrating. I wanted to go up there myself and drop the SPECIAL PIN!!!!!! lol Hope you all can make it next time!

Much love,
-Diana

Trusting Times...

How hard is it for you to trust? So you meet this guy/girl, and you trust them... NOT!!
You finally meet your father after years of not knowing who he was, and you trust him... NOT!!!
You see a dog/cat in the street with it's owner and whats the 1st thing you ask? Can I pet it, does it bite? Why ask?? Why not just go and pet the animal?? You re bigger than the animal is right? and have more intelligence than they have right? so why not just pet it? TRUST. See if you just go for it, you're going to have a fear of it biting you. Why? The animal has no idea who you are or where you come from. The same way you don't just run up to the animal and grab it and squeeze it. lol. The reason why I bring this up is simply because I right now I'm in a trusting stage. Yes!! Trusting Stage. I'm not sure if it's that I have gone through some things that have made it harder for me to trust, or what, but It's just hard for me. To believe that someone is telling you the complete truth, and for you to believe them 100%... tuff stuff. Like I said this is something that I am learning to do and handle. I trust God with all my heart, and even that took long enough for me to do. but funny how God doesn't need to get to know us to trust us. or even test us to trust us. Since before we were born He knew us, and entrusted us all with a purpose, with His Love, with His word, with His Son. That, I believe, is enough for us to Trust Him with our lives.

Still in training,
-Diana

1st time in a long time...

Sunday night @ freedom Culture was amazing. I mean I know I'm a little behind on my days but I just have to share this with you all. Sunday night was the 1st night in a long time that I once again led worship. this time along with Jerry, and again I say it was truly amazing! I led worship with Jerry like 2X's before this last one, and every time I do it's awesome. It's like Jerry and I can be singing something totally different and still be on the same page. We can be in 2 totally different keys and still sound amazing. Although this is great it's not about our talent, or even about how much we know each other or get along, this would have never happened if Jerry and myself had not decided to step back and allow God to move the way He wanted to.
It's just awesome that that attitude came not only from him and myself but from the leaders, just as Sharon said in her blog. Leading worship brought me back to the reality that God was not done with me. God is just starting another chapter in my life, and I am excited to know where it's going to lead me. Just to know that God has not given up on me. God has not thrown in the towel and just said "I'm done with her!" To know that our God still has plans set for us, and all we gotta do is say "Here I am lord, Use me."

-Diana

Gobble, Gobble Day

This day was truly amazing for me. Although I had to work, the night ended better than I expected. I know it's a bit late to write about the holiday but I would like to share how that day went with you all. Ernie, and I hung out that night, and we simply grabbed some Miami Subs Grilled chicken wings platter and rather than turkey like everyone else, we had chicken. lol
It's funny because to us it was almost like just another day. We then went to my sisters house in Cape Coral and began looking at some really old pictures. You know what I'm talking about right?? Those pix that you just want to burn so that no one can see what you looked like and then of course... Laugh at you, cause you know they are just not laughing with you. lol It was Ernie, my brother in law Hugo, my sister Maite, and I. I mean we were looking at pix that were way before my time. I'm talking about my mom and dad when they 1st met, and then their wedding, and them the best part of all... MY BIRTH!!! Lol At that point, that day all of a sudden became just a bit more and more meaningful. In our lives, I believe that we get so caught up in our daily routines, and our busy schedules that we just forget about the small yet amazing things in life. For those that might read this blog and don't really know me, I'll take a quick minute and let you know a bit of my history. I'm 23yrs old. I have 2 sisters, Daisy (39), and Maite (33). Daisy lives with dad and I and has literally become my mother. Maite, like I said, is married to Hugo and they have a son (my beautiful Nephew) Daniel and are expecting a baby girl soon to be named Daniella. Maite has also been an amazing mother/sister. The thing is that I have always said that I love them, but I have never really stopped to think how much they love me.
As I was looking at those pictures. I saw things that I has never really noticed, like... My sister Maite and I would always fight we would scratch each other and I will never forget how she would tell me that if I ever scratched her again she would come into my room when I was sleeping and chop my fingers off. LOL luckily she never succeeded. but the point is that although she would tell me that, in every picture we were always hugging or cracking up, or helping each other in some sort of way. Daisy and I were the total contrary. We never argued, she would defend me from the evil sister, and we were always with some sort of artistic related activity. From singing to dancing to painting, that's just us. Dad has just been the most amazing father that I can ever ask for. He has raised 3 girls all by himself and has been a strong head of the household. He has proven his love to us like you can NOT imagine. He has supplied me with everything I have ever needed. He has given advice, yet respected the descisions that I am going to make, and believe me it doesn't stop there. Where am I headed with this?... I have realized on this day of thanksgiving, how much my family truly loves me. and you might think this is pretty ridiculous but to me it means a whole lot. I am so grateful to have such a loving family. a family that supports me and stands behind me no matter what. a family that places God 1st. A family that although may be dysfunctional at times, still embraces every moment of it. I am grateful to have sisters that cares for me and watches after me. I'm grateful to have sisters that prays day and night for angels to watch over me and for God to guide my steps. I am grateful to have a father that after everything that we as a family have been through, can still stand today and love life. A father that does all he has to do to supply his 3 daughters with anything and everything they need. This is what I have given thanks for on this day. Let us never forget where we came from, and the people that have helped us make it this far.

W/ much gratitude to all,
-Diana